GRATEFUL

I am so happy that God has given me another miracle. I did not understand what happened to my day. I slept late last night but I woke up as early as 5:30 am and could not go back to sleep. My mind was blank when I woke up and I tried thinking of anything that might be important that could have disturbed my sleep and I could not think of any. To be awake by 5:30 without the aid of an alarm clock is a miracle in itself. That only happens when I'm in the middle of something important (i.e. audit). This time around, it's a Sabbath day, I'm not going to the office, no news from home, nothing unusual happened. Yet, there I was, trying to get my sleep back, with my empty brain...unsuccessful. I got up about 6:00 am when I gave up on getting more sleep. I did some brisk walking exercise for 30 mins, ate my cereals, took a shower. It was still early since it is just past 7 am.

I browsed the internet, realized I was not prepared for the Sabbath School review so I checked the Sabbath School lesson online. I was ready to go by 8:45 am. I got in church just in time for the service to start.

Then the miracle happened. When the first song was sung, it felt like my mind cleared. It's surreal. It's like the questions I did not know I have were finally asked. My heart's desires were revealed to me. The plans I've laid out for my life seem to have been sanctioned by God. Some questions were answered, some were not. But I felt like I am being led to a direction. I do not have anything to change at the moment. Everything stays as is. I still do not know where I am going but I feel like I am having a "Father Abraham" moment. When he was called out by God, not knowing where he was to go.

For the past 3 months, I have been asking God for this. Honestly, I stopped praying real prayers until two days ago. Now, God is drawing me near to Him again. While the Divine Service was going on, I was only half-listening to the preacher. I was having my own conversation with God. It feels so intimate. It was only God and me and He actually gave me the strength to work on my resolve. I still do not know what the immediate results would be but I am grateful for today's experience. Totally different and less emotional than the other miracles in my life but it is still a miracle, nonetheless.

It's amazing how much he can know a person. He really knows which nerve to touch to get a person's attention. My God is real.

I'm taking the leap of faith!