OPINION: I'm Such a Drama Queen

Last night, I had a conversation with my roommate. She's talking about her financial problems. It was not really supposed to be her problem, it was her parents'. But because she is a part of the family, it becomes her problem too. I would not disclose how much she needs but it's really a big amount. She's saying that there are some things she wants to do and yet she can't do them because a big part of her pay is allotted to paying off the debt.

Then today, my friend gave his testimony on how he survived his college life and how he is helping his siblings by sending them to school. I would say I was pretty much impressed...

...and embarrassed. I realized how much of a drama queen I am. I feel so selfish. I can do a lot of things on a whim because I don't have that much of a burden when it comes to my family. I am not obliged to help. They don't ask anything from me. And yet, I complain. When some of my relatives ask for help, I complain. Mainly because I think of the things I have planned on spending the money for, and I would be honest that most of them are just for my personal enjoyment. Not really a necessity.

Today, I learned that I am so blessed and I have nothing to do but be thankful with what I have and with what I am enjoying.

May I always remember the bigger sacrifices of my friends whenever I am asked to give up a little of my whims.

WAITING

While I am waiting for my friends to pick me up (we're going to the beach today), i'll be putting in my thoughts for a while. Right now, i am 26 years old. I decided to learn how to play the guitar. I wish i was one of those child prodigies in music or in anything but i'm not. I know that it's not too late to learn something new.

I just realized that for a lot of people, they always think it's too late because they know people who are really good in something who started young. But then, if that would always be the mentality, you would die with as much knowledge as when you were born. Life is not a competition. Life for me is just a journey. You just have to go through everything and pick up souvenirs along the way. Some souvenirs are more memorable than the others.

For me, my ultimate goal is to learn everything i could possibly learn. i have already accepted for a fact that i could not sing as good as mariah carey, or dance like questcrew or play any instrument like the rockstars or play any sports like michael jordan...you get the point, right?

I am just an average person with average looks and less than average height. But i will be the best average person i can be. I may not set a world record but i can set my own personal record and break them each time.