Improving My "People Skills"

I am at the extreme ends of emotional string. When I feel attached, i totally feel it that I sometimes have separation anxiety. But at the other end is the i-dont-care-at-all attitude. How i wish i have that skill of other people where they can maintain their closeness to everyone they had moments with.

Right now, I'm trying to adjust myself and try to be interested in the lives of my friends that I don't see anymore. I learned that the mere act of "liking" their Facebook status could open up a conversation, that with just that one click, people would feel that you are still a part of their lives and they are a part of yours. 

I should do this more often. It really feels good, after all. So, if you would just excuse me, I have Facebook statuses to like. 

We ate halo-halo in Nayong Pilipino in Malakal, Koror. This is the view...it looked so dreamy to me because of the heavy rain and because I was feeling cold. Anyway, the mood in this picture is the exact opposite of our mood while eating. I got free halo-halo :)

The Lord's Prayer

AMEN.

TGIF

And once again...the day everyone is waiting for. Rebecca Black was so excited, Katy Perry got wasted and pretty much everyone else. I am not really looking forward to this weekend because it's gonna be very busy but there is something about Friday that makes you feel like a battery that is about to be empty and you know that you really need to recharge. Come 5:00 pm and your energy level shoots up again. Friday, Friday...I'm not gonna get down on Friday but I so so excited still :).

I reposted this picture because this is a shot I'm really proud of. All my pictures are taken by my Sony DSC TX-5. I really love this camera. It has endured a lot of my adventures, especially underwater. It takes good shots too. :)

Something Soothing

a cup of tea...

Another Waste of Talent

The name, "Amy Winehouse" is not all that familiar to me until a few days before her death. I thought her genre was rock or some kind of Lady Gaga-ish music because they look similar. I still did not pay much attention even after her death because I'm not really into that kind of music. However, curiosity won and I just had to youtube her famous song, "Rehab" because I have sworn that I don't know any song she has. I was pretty sure I was going to hear noise. I was surprised when I watched and realized that I actually know the chorus part of the song and I even know another one, "I'm No Good." I remember singing it in the shower before.

It is just too sad that she made one wrong choice: the man to love.

All the awards she got, all the fame, that beautiful contralto voice have all gone to waste. Hers was an opiate addiction, almost impossible to cure. How many more stories of wasted talents are we going to have? How many more lives are going to be destroyed? It was just one choice, one WRONG choice and she was not able to make it back.

Amy Winehouse Performs stoned/drunk

ALL THE APPS IN THE WORLD

One thing I really enjoy since I got my MBP is the app store.  It's fun to download them with the knowledge that somehow, it would make your computer geek life easier and more fun. However, I have noticed that I am becoming more and more dependent on the apps. When I was a PC user, I only have the basics and I was able to survive. But now, I already have several apps for photos, another set of apps for video editing, then music apps, everything...even a BMI computer. I know I am not the only one and there are lots of people who have more apps than I do. I just got to thinking that with each download, I am thinking of how it could solve my problems. Like, I am very disorganized when it comes to schedules and I easily forget things I have to do...so i downloaded Evernote and Wunderlist. They are supposed to improve my productivity. Did they? NO. I still forget to encode the things I have to do.

My point is, technology could only help us as much. The improvement of the quality of our lives though is still in our control. There's no app to make you lose weight, no app to make you sleep early, no app to make you in good health, no app to make you exercise...and the list goes on.

With this thought, I should stop buying from the app store right now because I am not able to use all of them anyway. Ok, last app for photos then enough. Pbbbbffffttttt!!!!

Career Change

I want to shift career...i realized, i don't really want a career path. I just want to cruise through life. I am currently an accountant and we all know it's a boring job. I want more action, something that involves traveling and adventure. I still have a year before my contract expires and only God knows what's gonna happen to me after that. Fingers crossed, i really hope to be in a different field already. I don't care if it doesn't pay that much. I just want to do things that i enjoy. Let's where this life would take me. I don't know the first step though. Checking the internet now. Thank God for the internet!

The Beach

this is my shot using a point and shoot camera...i'll talk about point and shoot photography soon. :) this is klubed resort in Palau, by the way.

Wanting to Make It Bigtime?

We have alot of stories about people making it big in the internet, whether it be blogging, microblogging, or youtube. Examples are Bryanboy in fashion, Ryan Higa and Kevin Wu in YouTube, Lord_voldemort7 in twitter... Then we all realize, how cool is that? They don't have to do the normal 8-5 office hours, they are normal people and yet they are living "the life."

All of us experience getting burned out in our present job. We think , if they can make it, i can make it too. I want to be popular in the internet, then i dont have to do my job anymore and I will be earning money by doing what I want. However, i noticed that people want to take shortcuts. I get annoyed by these: #followback , SUB4SUB..etc. I know you all know what I'm talking about.

I noticed that these popular internet celebrities never did those. Sure, they put "subscribe" at the end of the video but they don't put SUB4SUB in other people's channel. They became popular because they just did what they love to do. They know what they wanted and eventually, people liked whatever they liked too.

I decided to follow their approach. I don't care if my posts would be liked or read by people. I would just do what I want to do...which is ranting, obviously. If this works out, then perfect...but if this doesn't, well, let's hope this works out. :D

Giddy!

This is only my second laptop ever. When I first started working, people were already nudging me to buy a laptop because everyone's got one. But I declined. I said I would only buy things that I really, really like, no matter the cost. I said I only want a Mac, nothing less. However, my job then requires that I have a laptop and because of the urgency of the need, I was forced to buy one (partly because the company would pay half). Then, when I moved to Palau, i decided to leave my laptop to my siblings, only a few months old. I liked that laptop, it was very useful but  I was not in love with it. Then, I was able to afford my dream laptop...I have fallen in love with it very fast! I love everything about it.

I knew that I made the right decision to wait until I am able to afford what I really want. I bought a 13" MacBook Pro. I love the apps, I love interface, I love the resolution, the feel...everything. One of the reasons I think is that this is something I have worked hard for. I had to wait. I know this sounds pretty much like a love story and it is. Now, I am downloading the new Lion OS. I did not just decide to download just because it sounds cool, i still researched on the new features and i knew it was worth it.

I know that it is not a big deal for most people but for me, I don't know. There is just a sense of satisfaction whenever I buy something that I really like. It makes me feel in control. It feels like a part of my dream is coming true. Probably sound too dreamy now. I'm loving this life...and I thank God for it. :)

Will This Work?

Ok, i know it's quite obvious that I wanted to earn from this blogging thing. Evidence? Look at the right side and bottom of this page. Yes, ads. However, I know that I don't always go with the trends. I always like what the minority likes. It is not helpful in business. LOL.

I actually started this blog just so I could express my thoughts freely. I found out in tumblr that it's not enough for me to post what other people want to see and while those notes are very exciting to see, it's not completely satisfying. It still feels like being on a job. The posts feel obligatory.

So now, those pay per clicks be screwed, I would be speaking my mind as much as I want to. But, i am not discouraging you from clicking anything you like that they have posted in my site. *wink wink*

That Beautiful Song

The first time I heard this song, i instantly fell in love with it. The melody and harmony was just amazing...lucky is the girl to whom this song is dedicated to.
I'm so into independent artists lately because their songs are really meaningful and heartfelt and the talents are just oozing.
My favorites as of now are Kina Grannis, Aj Rafael, and David Choi. Yes, those youtubers :)

SHE WAS MINE
capo 5

Jesse:
       D
So I hopped on a train,
          A
Three in the afternoon,
             Em
I don't know when I'm coming back,
       G
But I hope that its soon,
        D
See I never thought (never thought)
     A                       G
that I'd have to leave your side.
   A
(your side)


AJ: 
             D
Its only physically, 
                        A
But know that you will be on my mind,
              G         A
Twenty four hours at a time,
              D A           G     
'Cause in my eyes you were mine (you were 
 A
mine).


Then comes the chorus, which i didn't figured out yet.


play the same chords threw the other verses.


See she wrote me a letter,
Said the weather wasn't better,
But she said that she was doing fine,
I wanna see you face to face,
That's what she wrote to me that day,
And I knew that it was all a sign.

Jesse:
So I wrote back with this song,
Promise it won't be too long,
Wanna make up for all our lost time,
'Cause in my eyes you were mine (you were mine).

PET PEEVES IN FACEBOOK

I think everyone has something that annoys that is constantly showing in the News Feed. These are mine:

• "If he/she really loves you...." Ok, i get it that you are in a relationship. But could you please keep those relationship stuff between the two of you. If he already told you he loves you, then believe it! If you can't, then why are you even with him still? Please, spare me from those 'signs' of true love. Stop complicating it. Puhlease!
• "I'm so pretty/hot/sexy..." Are you in dire need of a compliment and you are not receiving it from other people that you have to do it for yourself? Doing it like once a year is fine, i get that it's a joke. But that kind of post everyday? You can't convince people you're attractive if they do not find you to be so...no matter how many times you suggest it to them.
• Posting a status message, liking it, commenting on it and liking your own comment. I mean, if you posted it, then it is understood that you like it. Did you like it too much? Then just put on your status that "i like this sooooo much so i'm sharing it," right? 
• Tagging me in their pictures when it's their solo picture just so i would comment on how good they looked. I'm like, are you five years old? Tip: If you want to really have that much comment in your picture, be beautiful! Then, you don't need to tag others, you will have those comments you are so craving for. Make up is affordable nowadays, you just have to learn how to use it then paint your face. When you are barely recognizable, then people will tell you how hot you look because they almost didn't recognize you.
• Checking in to Starbucks, or in any other posh place just so they could get the comment, "wow! im so jealous, how come you didn't invite me?" nuff said.
• Drama queens. Posting status messages like, "he doesn't love me anymore" or "it's your loss" or any other cliche. If you need to get his/her attention, call, text, email, fb message, chat...whatever. Just let the other person know and spare the space in our news feed!
• The "cool" guys. Their posts would always mention how much of a player they are, or how many drinks they had, or how high they are. 

Ok, i guess i'm hating on almost every post in facebook now. That's why i don't log in often anymore. It's just too noisy in there already...and senseless too. 

LOL

My blog is accumulating spiderwebs already. Doesn't matter though, this is a WEBsite anyway :)

FIRST PURCHASE

My credit card was from the Philippines. It can't purchase from iTunes USA. But today, i got a new card...that can purchase from US! It's sole purpose is really so i could purchase online and guess what my first purchases were?

Underwater case for my camera (so i could finally make a movie of my scuba diving adventures)

Extra battery for my camera (same purpose)

Apple Magic mouse (so i can edit the movie easier)

Kina Grannis' Stairwells deluxe album (just because i love, love her...her face, her voice, her musicality, everything!!!!)

Someone has been on a spending spree online. Stop me before i forget that there are still other days to come! I think they are all worth it though :)

WAITING

While I am waiting for my friends to pick me up (we're going to the beach today), i'll be putting in my thoughts for a while. Right now, i am 26 years old. I decided to learn how to play the guitar. I wish i was one of those child prodigies in music or in anything but i'm not. I know that it's not too late to learn something new.

I just realized that for a lot of people, they always think it's too late because they know people who are really good in something who started young. But then, if that would always be the mentality, you would die with as much knowledge as when you were born. Life is not a competition. Life for me is just a journey. You just have to go through everything and pick up souvenirs along the way. Some souvenirs are more memorable than the others.

For me, my ultimate goal is to learn everything i could possibly learn. i have already accepted for a fact that i could not sing as good as mariah carey, or dance like questcrew or play any instrument like the rockstars or play any sports like michael jordan...you get the point, right?

I am just an average person with average looks and less than average height. But i will be the best average person i can be. I may not set a world record but i can set my own personal record and break them each time.

THAT OVERRATED QUESTION, "DO YOU LOVE ME?"

As I was browsing the internet today, specifically tumblr, i realized that most of the posts that have the most notes are those that are about love. I have nothing against love, it's a beautiful thing. Everyone wants to feel it and express it. However, most of the things i saw are about how to know if a person really loves you...like REALLY. I have been there before. I had a boyfriend and all i do every single day is to assess if he still loves me because if he doesn't, he doesn't deserve me. Whenever he does not meet my expectations, i would assume that he is getting tired of me and he doesn't love me enough anymore. I promised myself that i would never burden anyone in a relationship. So every month, i would try to break up with him. He would ask me why and i will just say that i think he is taking me for granted, or that i think he is just obligated to the 'boyfriend stuff', and that basically, i am just a burden to him. He, on the other hand, would also feel unloved and tell me that my friends are more important to me and that i am happier with other people and stuff like that.
After the (final) breakup, i decided to look back and analyze every single thing in that relationship. Why it didn't work, why did i feel relieved of something, why, why, why...
I realized one thing, both of us have been too focused on checking each other if we are still in love and yet we failed to ask ourselves if we are.
So now, whenever i meet a guy, i don't ask him if he still enjoys my company or if i'm special to him. I ask myself instead. Do i still like him? Do i enjoy his company? Do i show him what he really is to me? I don't care how he feels anymore...ok, i still do, but not as much as i care how i feel towards him. Instead of assuming what he thinks about me, i evaluate myself and learn for a fact if i am still into him and if i am going in the other direction, i ask myself why. Is there anything that can be done to save it? If yes, then i do it then and there. I make the choice to grow with him. If none, then i know it's time to let go.
Letting someone know how you feel towards them is your sole responsibility. If he told you he loves you once, then believe until the time that he takes it back. How he feels is beyond your control. All you can control is your own feelings. Because there is no amount of explanation that could make up for lost love.
So lovers, don't waste your time demanding from your partner to prove his/her love to you. Just know know for a fact that you are still in love with him/her and are committed to staying in love.

Stop asking, "do you still love me?" (okay, except on special occasions and the moment calls for it).

RANDOM: Yet Another Site

I've been here before. I love blogspot/blogger. But my first one was a secret blog. I cant really publicize it. So I tried different blog sites such as multiply and tumblr. But I'm not satisfied. I still maintain them but multiply is now a marketplace and tumblr is for gifs and pictures. Not much for words unless you have alot of followers. I like both sites but i want more depth in my post and more freedom. Not just post what the followers might want to see. Hence, another blog...where i can post my thoughts, opinions, and random happenings and would not care about following. Let's make this work, shall we?